Eli’s side tattoo; best detailed pic, to date. ♡o。.(✿ฺ。 ✿ฺ)

dangerouseliaisons: Orange!

Orange: 6 facts about my home town.

  1. my home town and my current town are the same thing because i’ve lived in the same place my whole life.
  2. i live in a lower middle class neighborhood.
  3. there is not one starbucks in my entire town even though it is fairly populous and very close to a major city.
  4. this is because my town is pretty poor and basically the only businesses we can sustain are fast food chains and wal*mart.
  5. my town has a very bad reputation with the other towns in the surrounding areas and i often try to avoid saying exactly where i come from because people will judge me automatically for it.
  6. i often forget how bad the people here can be because i work and go to school in towns other than the one i live in and generally spend very little time in my town outside of my house. 
the-hoonthusiast: Green (positive things only!)

Green: 8 facts about my body

oh god you made this hard. okay…

  1. i love my calf tattoo as much as life itself and try to show it off as much as possible.
  2. my eyes are blue on the outside and green on the inside and it reminds me of the earth.
  3. i have great hair texture. it’s mostly straight, but it doesn’t just lay flat. it still has a lot of body.
  4. i have nice teeth. not too long or too short and years of orthodontia made them straight.
  5. i’m so pale that i have to be careful what shades of makeup (especially powders) that i buy because sometimes even the lightest shade is too dark for me and i’m really okay with that.
  6. though bigger than i would like, my butt is nicely shaped.
  7. my eyebrows are nicely shaped and not too thick or sparse. they have a nice arch to them even though i try to force them into being straight most of the time.
  8. (this isn’t necessarily positive, but at the same time, it is) i want to get hand tattoos because i hate my hands and i know if i could tattoo them, i would like them a lot more, but stupid society keeps me from doing that. i think that ink makes my skin more beautiful and the more i have, the more beautiful i feel and the more willing i am to show the skin that’s underneath the ink.
kebeans: grey c:

Grey: 2 facts about my favourite things.

am i supposed to name my favorite things or? i’m just gonna do this my way and name two favorite things and two facts about each of them…

  1. (the aforementioned) eli’s towel. fact 1 (this won’t be news if you read my la fan acct): eli actually, physically gave me his towel at the los angeles concert. i didn’t catch it when it was thrown into the crowd, he actually bent down and handed it to me.  it would have been special any way that i had obtained it, but that makes is a trillion times better. fact 2: when i was leaving la, i put the towel in my checked luggage and then realized that was a terrible, terrible idea because if (for some reason) my luggage had gotten lost i probably would have thrown up and cried and never been okay again…and i kind of freaked out about it until my luggage was safely back in my possession. 
  2. victoria’s secret bombshell perfume. fact 1: it’s not actually my favorite scent, but i wore it constantly when i was in korea because it was one of only two perfumes that i had with me and it was the one i preferred…so, now every time i smell it, it reminds me of being in korea. which is why… fact 2: i wore it to both of the u-kiss concerts. now whenever i smell that perfume, it reminds me of all the good things in the world. 
self-confessed-ukiss-obsessed: Purple and white

Purple: 10 facts about my room.

  1. my walls are turquoise blue.
  2. i have a ton of u-kiss posters, but the only ones actually on my wall are the bingeul bingeul and bran new kiss ones. i used to have four up, but two fell down and i never put them back up. i have a bunch of others in a random corner.
  3. i have a bookshelf with nothing but shoes on it.
  4. i also have a bookshelf with actual books on it. 
  5. i have a twin bed.
  6. i never make my bed unless forced.
  7. i have a shadow box on my wall that i has the towel eli gave me and my ukiss concert ticket from la in it.
  8. i have two large, flat plastic boxes under my bed. one contains kpop cds. the other contains ukiss merch. however, i ran out of room in both of them so i have 3 smaller boxes scattered about that also have ukiss stuff in them.
  9. i keep my hats on top of a round container that used to hold taro-flavored jellies. 
  10. i have a mirror that has a thin metal frame and i’ve stuffed photos of friends, stuff from last’s year’s vidcon, hmv clear files and a bunch of other random stuff in it to the point that it’s actually hard to see yourself in the mirror. 

White: 3 facts about my personality.

  1. i avoid conflict at all costs.
  2. however, i can out-argue pretty much anyone.
  3. i am not very emotional and i don’t particularly like that about myself. 

Purple: 10 facts about my room.
Blue: 9 facts about my family.
Green: 8 facts about my body
Yellow: 7 facts about my childhood
Orange: 6 facts about my home town.
Red: 5 facts about my bestfriend(s).
Pink: 4 facts about my parents.
White: 3 facts about my personality.
Grey: 2 facts about my favourite things
Black: 1 fact about the person I like.

Regarding your future, Do what ever you want and what would make you happy. take risks in life, be adventurous so you can live with no regrets! If you want to teach in korea, go do it! its only a few years. do it while you’re young ^^

i was discussing this with a friend earlier and the problem is that i want to do both things and i also don’t want to do either of the things. everything in me wants to move on from this point in my life that i’ve been stuck in for forever, but also wants everything to stay the same because navigating the world as an adult is very scary. i don’t know what i want. i want to go and live in korea and i also want to be a graphic designer. i can’t be a graphic designer AND live in korea so i have to choose, but choosing presents a lot of problems. if i go to korea, i could be compromising my future design career because what company is going to want to hire me a few years in the future when i’ve been out of the game for a long time with no real design experience to speak of? also, i’m going to be alone as fuck in korea. it’s not like when i was there for study abroad and already had a built-in social network…and even when i had that, i can’t forget that i had a lot of very low lows there because i felt alone and that i wasn’t connecting with other people in the way that i wanted to. if i go there now, it will be even worse and i’ll be even more alone than i was the first time and i literally have no idea how to make friends in my own country, let alone in a place that i don’t speak the language. however, if i go the graphic design route…there’s no guarantee that i will get a job even now and if i do that and never go to korea…will i forever regret it? and that whole thing might bomb as well. i hate having to navigate this all alone because my friends can’t choose for me, i have no significant other to speak of and i can’t talk to my parents about it because they will think i’m being idiotic for even considering going to korea over getting a job with my degree. i basically have no idea what i’m going to do and i’m just really scared. (also social anxiety/anxiety in general is thrown into this whole lovely mix.) no one can help me. and meanwhile, i get to watch all of my peers moving on to careers and getting married and having babies and it all makes me want to be sick tbh. 


tagged by kebeans~

Share 5 random facts about yourself then pass it along to ten of your favourite/new followers!

  1. i feel more like myself and more comfortable with an unnatural hair color (like purple like it is now) than with a normal hair color. i realize that my goal in life as far as appearance goes is not to be pretty…but to be strange pretty.
  2. once my internship ends at the end of august i’m supposed to find a real job and be a real adult and it terrifies me and i have no idea what to do. 
  3. i’ve started wearing a lithium quartz pendant everyday. my sister is pagan and believes in crystal healing and she said that lithium quartz is good for anxiety, depression and emotional healing. i’m not sure if it’s working, but it’s nice to have either way and i need all the help i can get.
  4. relating to #2, i don’t know if i want to go immediately into graphic design or if i want to teach in korea for a year or two first. i have no idea how to approach this subject with my parents, who expect that i’m going to look for a job pertaining to my degree immediately. i also have no idea if this is even a good idea anyway or if i’m doing it for the right reasons or if it will be a terrible, terrible life mistake and ruin a possible design career for myself. i’m so conflicted and i don’t know what to do.
  5. i hate feeling stifled and stuck and that is exactly how i feel right now and life becomes very uncomfortable for me if i think about that too much…which i just did.

i’m tagging the first ten people i see on my dash,…so enjoy! laysenpai daematos kang-junq woorixx ubiquitousb1a4byz kiseopsburden awings mangohero jeokda emeraldmirror